let's make History

i look forward to the day where i stand before Him and watch him open that book where He keeps a record of our History together. it's filled with every little detail of our life together, beginning with the major milestones--the first prayer i prayed to him, the day i accepted Him into my heart, the day i got baptized, the first prayer meeting i lead, etc. the book is big because it's filled with all the details--every worship song sung, every prayer prayed, moments of tears of joy, and moments of fear and unbelief. it'll have a record of every time i looked to Him, every internal dialogue we've had together. it'll include the good, easy seasons, seasons where i felt bored, and seasons of desperation. i'll look to Him, tears in eyes, and come face to face with the full reality that not a moment together was lost. nothing was forgotten. not a single cry of mine reached deaf ears, that He was actively aware and moved by every movement of my heart towards Him. i'll cry because if i only knew how much it moved Him, i would've given Him even more, so much more.

my love don't mean much to the world but,
it means the world to you
my song isn't sung by the world but,
you're teaching angels the tune
my prayers aren't heard by the world but,
you hush heaven when i talk to you
my life is just dust to the world but,
you gave yours so i could be with you
you saved my life when i needed you

i don't know why but you want me
i don't know how but you love me
it don't make sense, but you fought for me
so forever i will sing, i will sing.

you can have it just take all of me
cause you won it bleeding on a tree
you can take me completely
cause you won it on calvary
-zac dinsmore