i'm learning again about being still and letting Him and enjoy me, and for me to enjoy Him. as the days pass by, things seem to move all the more faster, and i find myself longing to cling to Him stillness.
i'm understanding that its okay to stay a bit longer, to linger and let Him have all of me. no agenda, no purpose other than just to be with Him. when i see Him for who He is, i realize i really don't give Him enough, and eternity may never be enough. but for now, i'll linger a bit longer.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Y7h6K13z0I
5.20.2013
3.21.2013
faith
6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. Hebrews 11:6
faith comes down to a perspective change. it's a conscious decision to go against everything that is before us at the moment and change our way of thinking in a way that is in alignment with a God we can't see. sometimes, it comes really easy. other times, our emotions, mindset, circumstance, and every other voice inside of us seems to be telling us to give up, that we are but making a fool out of ourselves.
in these moments, we have a choice. we can choose faith. we can choose to put to death every other force attempting to take hold of our mind, will, and emotions, and to renew our minds (rom 12:2) in the knowledge that He is right by our side. He's more involved in every detail of our life than we could ever realize. the issue isn't that He's not speaking to us, that He's off at a distance, or that He's not present in our lives, but that we've barely scratched the surface of understanding just how much He actually cares about us. if we could just for a moment quiet our busy minds we'd find Him walking right next to us, waiting patiently for the moment we'd realize His unyielding pursuit of our hearts. He'll never give up. He'll just keep waiting.
faith comes down to a perspective change. it's a conscious decision to go against everything that is before us at the moment and change our way of thinking in a way that is in alignment with a God we can't see. sometimes, it comes really easy. other times, our emotions, mindset, circumstance, and every other voice inside of us seems to be telling us to give up, that we are but making a fool out of ourselves.
in these moments, we have a choice. we can choose faith. we can choose to put to death every other force attempting to take hold of our mind, will, and emotions, and to renew our minds (rom 12:2) in the knowledge that He is right by our side. He's more involved in every detail of our life than we could ever realize. the issue isn't that He's not speaking to us, that He's off at a distance, or that He's not present in our lives, but that we've barely scratched the surface of understanding just how much He actually cares about us. if we could just for a moment quiet our busy minds we'd find Him walking right next to us, waiting patiently for the moment we'd realize His unyielding pursuit of our hearts. He'll never give up. He'll just keep waiting.
1.05.2013
2013
and this i know, with my hand in Yours, You will lead me over the mountain, through the valley, to Your fountains, that never run dry.
Jesus, You have won my heart.
Jesus, You have won my heart.
eyes of mercy
an image that keeps coming back to me is one of God dealing cards to me...like poker, except the cards dictate His verdict on my life. He deals me my first card, and it says "mercy". i take it and go through the motions of life. somewhere along the line, i sin, and he deals me a card, and it says "mercy". i enter a season where i feel like He's nowhere to be found, and He deals me a card, and it says "mercy". a day comes where i feel like i just don't have it in me to keep loving Him, and He deals me a card, and it says "mercy". then come days where i feel like complete failure, and i can see is my sin and lack of faithfulness. He deals me a card and its says "mercy".
then it finally hits me. His card is always mercy. was i expecting Him to deal me anything other than mercy? His eyes of mercy are irresistible. the best part is, He delights in showing me mercy (micah 7:18). i can't help but keep coming back.
in my weakness, I realize His love is so strong. He's so faithful. He's so safe. He's on my side. He doesn't care about how many times i'm going to fail. He doesn't care about how many times i fall short. all He cares about is that i came back to Him, and He's ready to show me mercy.
His yoke is so easy. His burden is so light. i'm holding on, God.
then it finally hits me. His card is always mercy. was i expecting Him to deal me anything other than mercy? His eyes of mercy are irresistible. the best part is, He delights in showing me mercy (micah 7:18). i can't help but keep coming back.
in my weakness, I realize His love is so strong. He's so faithful. He's so safe. He's on my side. He doesn't care about how many times i'm going to fail. He doesn't care about how many times i fall short. all He cares about is that i came back to Him, and He's ready to show me mercy.
His yoke is so easy. His burden is so light. i'm holding on, God.
1.02.2013
Jesus, let me see Your beauty
what do the creatures and elders see that moves them to give unceasing worship, from eternity past and eternity to come? oh that i would see what they see.
let incense arise
beauty beauty beautiful
glory glory glorious
You are
You are
take me into your throne room
let me see your beauty
let me see your face
i will write a wedding song
it's a noble thing i sing
and my heart it overflows with a love song to the king
and you're the most excellent of men
and your words are filled with grace
God's favor rests upon you
joy is shining in your face
Jesus, You're the most excellent
You are so beautiful
there is no one like You
from the start you had a plan
a companion by your side
perfected in your love
a pure and spotless bride
and then i knew you'd call my name
it's the sweetest voice i know
i will leave it all behind, Lord
where you go i will go
and the music of the streams make you glad
and the fragrance of my praise is all over you, all over you
let incense arise
beauty beauty beautiful
glory glory glorious
You are
You are
take me into your throne room
let me see your beauty
let me see your face
i will write a wedding song
it's a noble thing i sing
and my heart it overflows with a love song to the king
and you're the most excellent of men
and your words are filled with grace
God's favor rests upon you
joy is shining in your face
Jesus, You're the most excellent
You are so beautiful
there is no one like You
from the start you had a plan
a companion by your side
perfected in your love
a pure and spotless bride
and then i knew you'd call my name
it's the sweetest voice i know
i will leave it all behind, Lord
where you go i will go
and the music of the streams make you glad
and the fragrance of my praise is all over you, all over you
11.13.2012
You Make All Things New
one of the most powerful scenes in the movie the Passion of the Christ is when Jesus is carrying the cross, bruised and beaten, blood dripping from the crown of thorns pushed into his head. He collapses in fatigue and weakness, the weight of the cross bearing over him. His mother Mary comes running over in panic, and Jesus calms His mother with these simple words "See mother, I make all things new." (Rev 21:5) it's amazing that Jesus would say such thing. in the eyes of the world, how could a man like this make anything new? just look at Him! He can't even stand! He's about to be crucified!
the beautiful paradox of the gospel is that a man beaten to a pulp would overcome the weight of sin and pain of the world on the cross, only to turn it all around, to make all things new. He did it so that on the days when we feel at our worst--our most ugly, sinful, depressed, hopeless, and broken moments, the days where the accusations to our left and right tells us we've failed and it's all useless, He breaks forth with a resounding "I make all things new" and we can trade in our ashes for beauty, our sorrow for joy, or sin for righteousness.
Jesus, You make all things new. You are so able. help me to trust in You.
the beautiful paradox of the gospel is that a man beaten to a pulp would overcome the weight of sin and pain of the world on the cross, only to turn it all around, to make all things new. He did it so that on the days when we feel at our worst--our most ugly, sinful, depressed, hopeless, and broken moments, the days where the accusations to our left and right tells us we've failed and it's all useless, He breaks forth with a resounding "I make all things new" and we can trade in our ashes for beauty, our sorrow for joy, or sin for righteousness.
Jesus, You make all things new. You are so able. help me to trust in You.
10.28.2012
to know You
it's funny how so often we find ourselves in a place we don't want to be, only to find out that we're here so that He can do a beautiful work in our heart. we try so hard to run away from these places yet we end up back where we started, the very place we don't want to be.
what if i stopped trying to run away? what if i finally came into agreement with His leading, and understood that the very place where He placed me is where i need to be after all?
what if i actually believed that He knows better, that here is where i will finally learn to be content with nothing but Him? to be stripped of all things until He is all I have? that out of my heart will spring forth a passion for Jesus that would abound still more and more? is that not the cry that resonates within my soul? is He not answering that at this very moment?
i pray that my heart would learn to be still, and wait for His kind, tender heart to cover me like a blanket.
Jesus, teach me to pray. teach me to talk to you in every circumstance, in the exciting ones and the more boring, difficult ones. for talking to you only when i feel like it would really be like spiritual selfishness. may you increase, and may i decrease.
what if i stopped trying to run away? what if i finally came into agreement with His leading, and understood that the very place where He placed me is where i need to be after all?
what if i actually believed that He knows better, that here is where i will finally learn to be content with nothing but Him? to be stripped of all things until He is all I have? that out of my heart will spring forth a passion for Jesus that would abound still more and more? is that not the cry that resonates within my soul? is He not answering that at this very moment?
i pray that my heart would learn to be still, and wait for His kind, tender heart to cover me like a blanket.
Jesus, teach me to pray. teach me to talk to you in every circumstance, in the exciting ones and the more boring, difficult ones. for talking to you only when i feel like it would really be like spiritual selfishness. may you increase, and may i decrease.
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