my biggest fears

(yay for late night rants!)

it's a scary thing, to finally be able to sit and be still, only to realize that it's been so long;
so long that you've forgotten the face that you were created to gaze upon.

it's a scary thing, to sit and be still, only to realize that you've forgotten who He is;
you don't even know who you are waiting for.

it's a scary thing, to become bored, restless, after spending just a minute in silence with Him;
you no longer can enjoy just being with Him.

it's a scary thing, to have time set out to talk to Him;
only to realize you have nothing to talk about. you don't even want to be here with Him.

it's a scary thing, to be unmoved when you meditate upon His love;
is Your love really better than life?

tonight, i recommit my vow to never reach these places.

i will cling on to You and never ever let go.