to know You

it's funny how so often we find ourselves in a place we don't want to be, only to find out that we're here so that He can do a beautiful work in our heart. we try so hard to run away from these places yet we end up back where we started, the very place we don't want to be.
what if i stopped trying to run away? what if i finally came into agreement with His leading, and understood that the very place where He placed me is where i need to be after all?
what if i actually believed that He knows better, that here is where i will finally learn to be content with nothing but Him? to be stripped of all things until He is all I have? that out of my heart will spring forth a passion for Jesus that would abound still more and more? is that not the cry that resonates within my soul? is He not answering that at this very moment?
i pray that my heart would learn to be still, and wait for His kind, tender heart to cover me like a blanket.
Jesus, teach me to pray. teach me to talk to you in every circumstance, in the exciting ones and the more boring, difficult ones. for talking to you only when i feel like it would really be like spiritual selfishness. may you increase, and may i decrease.

selah

Hear my cry, O God,
    listen to my prayer;
 from the end of the earth I call to you
    when my heart is faint.
Lead me to the rock
    that is higher than I,

for you have been my refuge,
    a strong tower against the enemy.

 Let me dwell in your tent forever!
    Let me take refuge under the shelter of your wings! Selah
 For you, O God, have heard my vows;
    you have given me the heritage of those who fear your name.

Prolong the life of the king;
    may his years endure to all generations!
 May he be enthroned forever before God;
    appoint steadfast love and faithfulness to watch over him!

 So will I ever sing praises to your name,
    as I perform my vows day after day.

Psalm 61

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.