this is what i do instead of going to physics

more deep talk. not really heehe

after much prayer and discernment, andee and I decided to ditch physics today. which by the way, we have never done before. cause we are good students...duh. we still went because we didn't want to feel guilty of being bad students, even if it meant an hour of doing nothingness. i call this phenomenon the guilt trip effect.

so this is what i do instead of going to physics.

it is finished. the list of 25 interesting things in the life of eric shi. from compiling this list, i found out that eric shi is not that interesting. i knew it.
the process was pretty sad. during random times of the day i would think of something random and type it in my phone and then add to my post-it note thingy on my laptop, which by the way is the best thing on my computer next to my macbook wannabe program launcher thingy.

sooo. andee probably knows all 25 of these plus like another 2342343 more.

1) i like to pray in the bathroom. whether it is showering or taking care of business. there's no better way to spend your time in there. i also like to pray when i run.
2) i now really like my task bar on the top of my screen instead of on the bottom. heeh
3) my favorite place to sit in lecture halls is in the back row, especially if it is a side seat. i can't stand sitting in the middle cause it gets really hot and stuffy i can begin to smell the people next to me and i get all claustrophobic. the back is the best cause that's where all the cool people sit and i get to stretch my legs out into the aisle.
4) so apparently touch is my love language. touch is good.
5) vanilla soymilk is the best. it is like nectar from heaven haha.
6) i now open bananas from the bottom cause they look better once you are done with them. like the mario kart banana peels people slip on. try it next time and you will find out this amazingness.
7) i have trouble saying the word cinnamon. i also sing to girl music sometimes. and i realized i am quite shameless at times.
8) country style pulpy orange juice is the only way to go. pulp free orange juice is a disgrace to all oranges and the juice that they produce. what a shame.
9) when eating grapes, i throw back the mushy grapes and eat only the hard ones. haha jkay. not really. sorta.
10) i really like tapioca pudding. chocolate pudding is good too. so is vanilla pudding
11) i don't like frosting. i'd rather eat cake by itself.
12) i like the clean smell of bleach or burning wood during camping, or fireplaces cause it reminds me of christmas. pine sol is really good too. or morning air. or beach mist air. or when it rains sortaish. or fresh baked bread. or any food.
13) i'm really good at losing pens
14) i am lactose cause a few years ago i realized i got gassy when i drank milk. at first i thought it was just me.
15) i really don't like stuffy cars. or janky smelling cars. or messy cars.
16) i don't like airplanes. cause they smell funny. and the leg room is no good for tall people cause my knees hit the chair in front of me especially when they are mean and recline all the way and steal my leg room. i don't like to touch anything in the airplane like the magazines, pillows/blankets they give you. and i am always suspicious where air from that nozzle thingy comes from. cause its sure not fresh air. oh yea and i only like to sit in the aisle seats cause i can stretch my legs out and trip the food cart lady. sorry. oh yea and airplane food is like the only food in the world that i do not feel like eating.
17) my biggest pet peeve is being late to church. cause i sorta like to sit in the front. and i don't like to miss worship too cause that's like the best part. no. all of church is the best.
18) i really like fresh baked bread. especially like asian bread. i like to eat it with soy milk. my dream would be to open a bakery when i grow up. or any food place.
19) when wiping myself on the toilet, i fold my toilet paper, not crumple.
20) praise the Lord is my favorite phrase. i also realized that i say a few other phrases such as: for sure, to the maximum, precious, that's cute, junks, lamesauce, no bueno, silly, and when i don't know what to say i say that's interesting.
and i ESPECIALLY own phrases like victory, janky, dangsit, debbie downer. HAHA
21) i really want a blackberry. or a slr camera. but i am too cheap cause i want to save moneys. we will see.
22) i really don't like capitalizing my words when i type emails and blog and stuff.
23) i would prefer to sleep early. like at 10 or 11. and wake up early. i guess that makes me a morning person. sorta. cause my brain sometimes doesn't work in the morning. and my brain shuts down after like 12am. sometimes alot earlier. and i don't like doing any thinking after that. and i start to act like a kid. which i tend to do even when i am awake.
24) my dream job is to be a chef. so i can cook and eat food every single day of my life. or to be a shamu trainer at sea world. or be a national park ranger so i get to live in nature.
25) i like to eat. like alot. i realized alot of my facts were about food. story of my life. oh wells. i get hungry alot. thanks Jesus for creating hunger in me. for food and for hunger for YOU!

ooops that is alot. too much ranting. but i realized i learned alot about myself from typing this.

oh yea and i got a flickr! cause i was inspired. sorta. and cause for privacy issues i guess. i didn't want pictures of my mom and dad showing up on all 2000 of my facebook friends' mini-feeds haha.

http://flickr.com/photos/35536876@N08/

how He loves

it's the most beautifulest thing in the world.

finally beginning to truly embrace how much Jesus loves me so.
it's really easy to know it with my head knowledge, but the hard part is comprehending the reality of it. i may not always feel like it, but i'm beginning to realize how the reality of the love of Jesus begins to exceed feelings.

a love encounter with you Jesus.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JoC1ec-lYps

how he loves is a really good song.
it paints a picture of love unheard of in this world, but found only in Jesus.
i couldn't stop crying when i first listened to it.
and her prayer at the end is just a;lsdkfhaso;dfi

so heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
my heart turns violently inside of my chest
i don't have time to maintain these regrets
when i think about the way
he loves me so

how can i not be moved when i know how He loves me so?

how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you

completely satisfied yet utterly dissatisfied.

it really describes how i feel sometimes with faith. that i am so satisfied with Jesus and His presence, but i am dissatisfied because i want more. i don't want to settle where i am at with comprehending the love of God, but to reach the full capacity of loving Jesus with all my heart soul strength and mind. i am dissatisfied because i want to make this presence of Jesus known to everyone around me. but it's so hard. i can't teach passion. i can't teach hunger, thirst, desperation, urgency, desire for Jesus. we each need to personally encounter the love of God in order for us to truly understand how good Jesus really is.

there are so few others who realize this as well, it bugs me how the manifest presence of God can be so powerful yet dead to others at the same time. how we can just be okay with a superficial christianity and have an okay prayer life and an okay relationship with God. how too many of us settle with going through the motions of church, of religion, but when was the last time we actually sat at the feet of Jesus to listen to Him, to love on Him, to to let Him love on us? when was the last time we spent a good five minutes from our busy lives just to sit and dwell in the goodness of God and let Him love on us? to really dwell on how much He really loves us so?

i am dissatisfied how too many fail to realize that there is side of God that is seriously, madly, deeply in love with YOU, and i get a bit frustrated sometimes when we fail to realize that. we are unable to fall in love with the beautiful bridegroom Jesus. but yet we settle for weaksauce prayers and half-hearted worship. we have no passion, no urgency, no desperation, no hunger, no thirst, no desire, because we have never encountered the love of God before.

God i want to make this other side of you be known to everyone around me. the thick and tangible presence of His love. God i pray may be truly know what it means to encounter the love of God, how You want us to encounter Your love, Your amazing love. without the love of God, what does life mean?

yet, there is hope. more than ever before i see glimpses of hearts that desire this passionate worship. in my freshmen, in my friends. it's the most beautifulest thing ever.

so good. so good. gahhhhh

phew! praise the Lord

deep thoughts are good. stories about my life are good too, i guess.

my blog has new look! mmm but it was not easy.

all i wanted to do was make my margins smaller (simple right?) so i tried editing the html (which, by the way, you should never even touch unless you are a computer genius) but i pressed the wrong button and it like messed up EVERYTHING and like took me to a boring stone age-like blogger format so i started to panic but it was late and i had to sleep and there's a physics quiz today that i need to study for but i was really tired so i slept with an uneasy feeling knowing that anyone who was gonna read my blog (like who does anyways? well maybe andee. and a few other good friends) to find a very hideous web page with janky formatting and just no bueno.

but this morning (after morning prayer) a miracle happened. i went back and just clicked something and everything turned back to the way i wanted it. phew! praise the Lord.

date with andee for denny's at midnight. like i don't see enough of my buddee already. oh where would i be without him. heehe what a blessing he is. thanks Jesus.

note to self:
prayer prayer PRAYER: housing next year, ministry (prayer team? to allow myself to be stretched), for my freshmen (especially my guys) to ENCOUNTER the love of Jesus to hunger thirst and intimately desire Jesus.

thanks mom

oh mom. her emails. her english. so precious.
mother always knows best :) just one verse:

let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith.
heb 12:2

love story is a very girly song.
good friends. girl socks are very thin. but if they are black i'm cool with that. and personalized. sorta. hehe. could i ask for more?
God's favor is over warren college. sooo good. please don't stop here God.
help me to set my eyes not on what is seen but what is unseen. the spiritual. the power of Jesus that moves mountains and transforms hearts and lives forever.
Lord i give you ALL my worship. i'm not settling for anything less.
Jesus be my only satisfaction

as for now Jesus,
i'll set YOU as a seal,
as a seal upon my heart
for there is love
that is as strong as death
jealousy demanding as the grave
many waters
cannot quench this love

i want to take
my passion
and put it in a bottle
just to break it at Your feet.
i want to take
my affections
put them in a bottle
just to waste them at Your feet.

loves of my life

surprise! this. is. my. family! heehee
i love them alot. like alot. i miss them mucho.
brother rick is much stronger than me
sister alicia is good at soccer and very sweet
father is a new believer! praise the Lord
and mother. oh mother. the mother is simply...too precious.
oh. and the dog buddy. he is smelly. haha not very smart. and bad at getting his picture taken.

and...they are coming over during president's day weekend! hooray

thank you God for blessing me with my family. the loves of my life. since leaving for college, the countless emails we now send. the hours we talk each time i call home. especially that mother. the hong bao that they mailed me for chinese new years. oh where would i be without them. thanks Jesus.