to know You

it's funny how so often we find ourselves in a place we don't want to be, only to find out that we're here so that He can do a beautiful work in our heart. we try so hard to run away from these places yet we end up back where we started, the very place we don't want to be.
what if i stopped trying to run away? what if i finally came into agreement with His leading, and understood that the very place where He placed me is where i need to be after all?
what if i actually believed that He knows better, that here is where i will finally learn to be content with nothing but Him? to be stripped of all things until He is all I have? that out of my heart will spring forth a passion for Jesus that would abound still more and more? is that not the cry that resonates within my soul? is He not answering that at this very moment?
i pray that my heart would learn to be still, and wait for His kind, tender heart to cover me like a blanket.
Jesus, teach me to pray. teach me to talk to you in every circumstance, in the exciting ones and the more boring, difficult ones. for talking to you only when i feel like it would really be like spiritual selfishness. may you increase, and may i decrease.