finally beginning to truly embrace how much Jesus loves me so.
it's really easy to know it with my head knowledge, but the hard part is comprehending the reality of it. i may not always feel like it, but i'm beginning to realize how the reality of the love of Jesus begins to exceed feelings.
a love encounter with you Jesus.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?
how he loves is a really good song.
it paints a picture of love unheard of in this world, but found only in Jesus.
i couldn't stop crying when i first listened to it.
and her prayer at the end is just a;lsdkfhaso;dfi
so heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
my heart turns violently inside of my chest
i don't have time to maintain these regrets
when i think about the way
he loves me so
how can i not be moved when i know how He loves me so?
how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you
completely satisfied yet utterly dissatisfied.
it really describes how i feel sometimes with faith. that i am so satisfied with Jesus and His presence, but i am dissatisfied because i want more. i don't want to settle where i am at with comprehending the love of God, but to reach the full capacity of loving Jesus with all my heart soul strength and mind. i am dissatisfied because i want to make this presence of Jesus known to everyone around me. but it's so hard. i can't teach passion. i can't teach hunger, thirst, desperation, urgency, desire for Jesus. we each need to personally encounter the love of God in order for us to truly understand how good Jesus really is.
there are so few others who realize this as well, it bugs me how the manifest presence of God can be so powerful yet dead to others at the same time. how we can just be okay with a superficial christianity and have an okay prayer life and an okay relationship with God. how too many of us settle with going through the motions of church, of religion, but when was the last time we actually sat at the feet of Jesus to listen to Him, to love on Him, to to let Him love on us? when was the last time we spent a good five minutes from our busy lives just to sit and dwell in the goodness of God and let Him love on us? to really dwell on how much He really loves us so?
i am dissatisfied how too many fail to realize that there is side of God that is seriously, madly, deeply in love with YOU, and i get a bit frustrated sometimes when we fail to realize that. we are unable to fall in love with the beautiful bridegroom Jesus. but yet we settle for weaksauce prayers and half-hearted worship. we have no passion, no urgency, no desperation, no hunger, no thirst, no desire, because we have never encountered the love of God before.
God i want to make this other side of you be known to everyone around me. the thick and tangible presence of His love. God i pray may be truly know what it means to encounter the love of God, how You want us to encounter Your love, Your amazing love. without the love of God, what does life mean?
yet, there is hope. more than ever before i see glimpses of hearts that desire this passionate worship. in my freshmen, in my friends. it's the most beautifulest thing ever.
so good. so good. gahhhhh
