a purpose

Now listen, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.” Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. Instead, you ought to say, “If it is the Lord’s will, we will live and do this or that.”
james 4:13-15

"If we are in fellowship and oneness with God and recognize that He is taking us into His purposes, then we will no longer strive to find out what His purposes are. As we grow in the Christian life, it becomes simpler to us, because we are less inclined to say, “I wonder why God allowed this or that?” And we begin to see that the compelling purpose of God lies behind everything in life, and that God is divinely shaping us into oneness with that purpose. A Christian is someone who trusts in the knowledge and the wisdom of God, not in his own abilities. If we have a purpose of our own, it destroys the simplicity and the calm, relaxed pace which should be characteristic of the children of God."
-oswald chambers

Jesus, take me into oneness with You. not my purpose for my life, but Your purpose for a life surrendered unto You. my life is no longer my own. remind me that my life is but a vapor. let me die to myself, to let you be my Leader. Your leadership is perfect, help my unbelief. where You go i go what you say i say, what You pray i pray. let me be one with Your will, your purpose. i surrender my will, my ambitions at Your feet. Abba, forgive me for my self-centeredness. forgive me for putting my ways above Yours. forgive me for my stubbornness and being an overthinking control freak and wanting things to always go my way in my time. all of time is in your hands. forgive me for my tunnel vision, my inability to see beyond my light and momentary afflictions, my inability to see the big picture, my inability to see things the way You see them. open up my eyes that i may see wondrous things from Your law.
i lift up my eyes to You. i lift my soul to You. my help comes from You alone. give me grace to remain obedient to Your ways alone. help me to stop questioning Your ways and set my heart to find freedom in Your will alone. all i am, have and ever hope to be, all my ambitions hopes and plans are forever Yours. let eternity begin now, that i may be one with You. i am Yours, i am Yours, i am Yours.