deep thoughts

my blog lacks deep thoughts.
so i will try to blog some deep thoughts. for the sake of a good friend.
confession: i end up putting a lot more time in writing my blogs than i originally intend to
cliffs on a sunny day is pretty much the most beautifulest place to run to. thank you Jesus for your creation.
i am wearing black socks right now. i love black socks cause if they get dirty then no one (including myself) knows.
almond milk tea is better than regular milk tea
i did laundry today. the reason is cause i ran out of underwear...like 4 days ago...which means...yeah...but it's okay. boxers can be flipped inside out and used twice. and i'm a pretty clean person..
i'm really hungry right now. i'm always hungry.
and
i have really really reeeallly good friends.
i love my mom. especially the emails she sends me. and the verse she gave me today:

numbers 6:24-26
The LORD bless you
and keep you;
the LORD make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn his face toward you
and give you peace

ahh i can dwell on that all day.

i am pretty shameful. i get shy really easy.
but then again, i guess i am pretty shameless. maybe cause i am satisfied with the way Jesus made me: fearfully and wonderfully made. i can burp really loud and not be shameful. or have my stomach rumble really loud during a physics quiz. or eat alot like a human garbage disposal. or skip. like a girl. or dance. in ways that i shouldn't be.
but i think more important is to be shameless. for Jesus. like when pouring into my freshmen, and not give them a watered-down Jesus. or inviting them to a random praise night. or challenging them in uncomfortable ways. or being shameless during worship. and dance. and not care about the people around me. not to fear man but fear God alone.

Jesus culture has a really good song. its called happy day:
oh happy day
you washed my sins away
i will never be the same again
i am forever changed

it sounds like a reeally good song to start each day of my life. to be reminded by how He loves me so.
remind me Abba.

break me God.
breaking and molding
i find you beautiful Jesus.
may i allow myself to be loved.
i receive it

Jesus, give me a:
fresh passion
fresh thirst
fresh hunger
daily.

i, want to play,
the strings of your heart, God
come play the strings of mine.
i, want to sing, straight to your heart God,
come sing straight to mine.

Lord, you have my heart,
and i am searching, for yours

a heart to heart connection.
sooo intimate.
seal it upon my heart God.

i set my gaze,
on the sight of Your face,
always, always.

there must be more than this.
don't hold back God.